& so the doctor said she has jaundice, bladder & liver failure. Her eyeballs, skin & teeth are already very yellow. She gave me 2 options, either Girly goes through ultra-sound treatment, but if she cant take the shock that her fragile body has to endure, she might leave me soon enough; or i could leave her at the vet for 2 days and if she has no steady progress, she'll be put to sleep to end the suffering.
And i cant visit her now, but only at 7. why do I have this thinking she'll leave me without saying goodbye? My head is telling me things but my heart fails to understand. My brother ring me a moment ago saying that even if she has to go through ultra-shock, she'll feel so much pain, & whats the point of making her suffer? I know I have to let her go; but not so soon.
Girly, mommy wants to hold you in her arms as much as you want to feel mommy's love but please hold on, until i get there at least.
If you're listening up there, guide me today, for it is the first time in my life, I'm feeling so much pain.
xxx